I used to be thankful that I was trying to make the world a better place, trying to make people feel appreciated and loved. I wanted to lead by example. But at night, I would crumble, feeling like a failure.
I was a people-pleaser. I put everyone and everything else before me. It was “the right thing to do.” I was a shell. I lost my purpose, sense of self and self-worth. When people didn’t receive my intentions well, I took it personally. I let it define me.
I was confused when people weren’t thankful, but eventually, I came to understand that thankfulness is born within.
I committed to reevaluating my life. First, I took a deep look at myself. It was painful, scary, and, surprisingly, healing. I was screaming for the help I was constantly trying to give others. I realized I needed to gift myself the love I was offering the world around me.
I worried I wouldn’t have anything left to give. I struggled to trust the process, to be selfish. I learned when I put myself first, I was capable of giving so much more. I’d been living for the approval of others, but when I loved myself fully, I trusted my heart. And from that place, I could return to serving. This time, already full of love.
Katie Lovebomb has traveled the US, first on tour as a performer, then years later, after battling chronic illness and losing a loved one to suicide, in a Pontiac Vibe. Both journeys had challenges but she found a way to include laughter and positivity. Her aim? To change the lives of all who paused in their busy lives to get to know the girl with the wide smile and pigtails. Now, she is dedicated to living in alignment with her purpose as a life coach, a transformational speaker and a writer. She offers programs to other chronically ill patients. Find her on livevibelife.com, as well as on Facebook and Instagram.
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