Ugly Steps and Crooked Railings
When we first bought our house, it had a wonky, completely non-code step that led up onto the front porch. It required you to think twice before attempting it, every single [...]
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Sometimes Being Physically Ill is Being Heartsick
Content warning: sexual abuse, trauma I have had urinary tract infections for nine months, almost at a rate of once per month. When a urinary tract infection (also [...]
It’s Not A Rant, It’s My Reality
Content warning: suicide, loss Ever notice when we get completely worked up and really want to express what affects us deeply, we call it a rant? I’ve had rants before. [...]
The Boy In The Playroom
When I was seven, I was healed by a miracle. That’s how my parents always told it. The night before, we’d had company. It was a weeknight, which meant my sister and I [...]
Losing Alex
I still remember it like it was yesterday. The crisp January air stung my face as I hurried across the Lubbock Christian University campus, my mind abuzz. The 2010 Spring [...]
Notes from Nanea | Scar-Gazing
My dear Sweatpants & Coffee tribe, I’ve been in the mental health trenches lately, as perhaps many of you are, and have been. Therapy has been wild. I wrote the other [...]
That’s What She Said | How To Deal With Light When Emerging From Grief
It’s hard to have nice things. Really hard. Also, that’s what she said. After I had children and discovered the sheer destruction that they wrought on – [...]
Sweatpants & Soul | Revival
I was born on thirteen forested acres, in a trailer on the American River Canyon in Northern California. Whenever my parents had any extra money, it went into renovating this [...]
The Queen of Break-Up Travel
The November rain fell in succulent drops on the ancient, cobblestone streets. I stuck my tongue out to capture a raindrop. But then I remembered I was in Paris. [...]
The Comfort of Making Things
A few weeks before 9/11, a movie producer taught me to knit at a press junket. I was a marketing executive at Sony and spent my days with people who made things—movies, [...]
